In summary, I was stuck living an unfulfilled, draining and stressful life.

Essentially, I was a workaholic people pleaser with a complete inability to set boundaries or understand, let alone prioritise my own needs! 

Plus I was my own worst critic, in a cycle of self-hate, victim mindset and I allowed my limiting beliefs to keep me stuck right here.

Fast forward a few years and I qualified as a lawyer and separately as a yoga teacher.

And then the whole world got shut down. 

I always said that my practices helped me to stay grounded and balanced, but during lockdown, increased work pressures meant I found myself working crazy hours, eating all my meals at my desk, letting go of the things that made me feel good, falling into old negative patterns of behavior and putting myself last again. 

I felt completely exhausted, anxious, depressed and stressed. 

I was totally burned out, waking up in the night with panic attacks, unable to meet my own basic needs and was suffering with
such severe brain fog that I often found myself physically and mentally lost. 

I felt like I couldn’t give myself time to think about anything, unless I was getting paid to think about it. Even very simple daily life admin tasks became impossible for me because I was so defeated. 

I was making myself physically and mentally ill. I wasn’t showing up as the best version of me at work as a lawyer, for my yoga students, in my relationship, or as a dog mum. All because I had completely stopped showing up for myself. 

Even though I KNEW my practices would help me, I kept setting them aside, spiraling deeper into this black hole, until I hit rock bottom. 

Because knowing the practices is not enough,
you have to actually do them! 

I knew I needed my practices more than ever and so I had to make a change. I had to dig deep to find motivation to allow me to reset, re-energise and reconnect to myself. To let go of the old unhelpful mindset blocks and behaviour patterns and allow myself to grow. 

My mind and body were screaming at me to make changes and finally I listened and I am so grateful that I found the courage to.

I realised that by always putting myself last, I was telling
myself and the world, that I wasn’t worthy.

I reconnected with my mind and movement practices, rebuilding habits to serve my soul and re-energise myself. I started taking the first hour of my day for me to do whatever I needed in the moment, be it breathwork, journaling, meditation, a sweaty workout or a restorative yoga class.

I listened to myself and what I needed. I made my morning a non-negotiable time to re-energise so that I could show up as the woman I wanted to be. 

And I HEALED MYSELF. And if I hadn’t done this… I dread to think where I would be.